Feeling left out.

A wasted gift sort of feeling or emotion.

I was not awarded honour and no academic achievement during final 3 years of school. Maritzburg college. I was seated in the hall the big hall and a few boys went up and got all the awards. I feel upset but internalize that. Then feel obligated to sit and clap when I feel so upset and left out. Then each day I go to the same place to feel like an outlier each and every time.

Now I feel a bit different, I enjoy doing activities. I just need to be more present.